The memoirs of a School girl
I don't know why am I penning this down now. I just wanted to write this before it fades away from my memory and fall behind the curtain of time.
Gratitude is the least I could say to the people and the school who made me who I am today as a person. I feel that the best of my personal evolution was during my school days and PG days.
School days!!! it is a totally different saga,12 long years -A journey with 78/74 students together .(it changed as you progressed your classes) but it was in seventies always. 74/78 beautiful flowers we were. I should better call them 74 beautiful "little Flowers". we had been through thick and thin. From kindergarten to the 10th standard. Indeed a long journey and there itself I have experienced how the equations with people changes over time and as you grew up how the meaning of friendship changed , how your best friends changed , and how you even understand that there isn't a concept called best friend at all..!
Fortunately or unfortunately I had been the class leader of the "little flowers" until 6th standard as far as I remember and I realize today that I was a dictator back then!! I don't know how my fellow little flowers tolerated me..!! Today when I look back all I could say is a big "thank you " to them, for I always needed a pin drop silence in the class and till 4th standard my idea to keep my fellow "little flowers" silent was to say stories to them which I have read or to make them all sing in mass and it really worked!
And the breaktimes! The games we played - I believe - personally improved our certain skills a lot- we played the memory test games siting as a circle at our church verandah..!
when I reached the 5th standard the scene changed, there was a poor fund box in our class and what did I do? My punishment was simple. To make the flowers quiet a fine of 1 rupee you have to contribute to the poor fund each time you speak.. !! Today when I look back I myself feel ashamed. After all who am I to punish my fellow beings?? As I was also just a student like them. There should not have been such system .Today I believe that idea of giving a fine isn't a fair one...! but still they tolerated. ( though I am pretty sure today that many might have hated me for being a "Hitler" back then.! I actually was!!!
Gratitude is the least I could say to the people and the school who made me who I am today as a person. I feel that the best of my personal evolution was during my school days and PG days.
when I reached the 5th standard the scene changed, there was a poor fund box in our class and what did I do? My punishment was simple. To make the flowers quiet a fine of 1 rupee you have to contribute to the poor fund each time you speak.. !! Today when I look back I myself feel ashamed. After all who am I to punish my fellow beings?? As I was also just a student like them. There should not have been such system .Today I believe that idea of giving a fine isn't a fair one...! but still they tolerated. ( though I am pretty sure today that many might have hated me for being a "Hitler" back then.! I actually was!!!
The days passed.he years passed , the leader changed , our relationships changed.. and then we had the communicative English classes ! i still laugh hard at our crazy English...None actually had the proficiency in English , but some how v all managed to say that half English and to have an upper-hand , how we used the dialogues from English movies! i remember our class was divided into several groups and beautiful names like diamond, emerald , ruby was given to the groups.. from 8th standard , it was all about group points, if you speak , your group points will be reduced , and if you speak malayalam , again a minus point...! so that was a collective responsibility to make your group gain good points and also be responsible not to reduce points..! and how we earn points ?, it was simple , make some beautiful charts of the portions u learned , to write something on ur own and share it with the class.. etc,.. obviously that was to improve ur skill as a student!! there, with this group games, we all learned the importance of being responsible while living in a community..!
we had such an immense strength in our class.. so 5 students were actually "packed" in that small bench..! in our lower classes , our major complaint was the issue of space.. and the secret complaints of the fellow class mates on the other person will be on , "how much space she is taking? why cant she keep her bags down on the floor".😂😂. how silly we were..!!! and then as v grew up , the issues of space vanished and v all stay together with what little we had!!
Again the most beautiful memories i had which i cherish even today was our preparations for quizzes , competitive exams.. at least a 10 of us were given a special permission to study sitting outside the class during our free hours..! that was the most awesome moment i ever had in my school life. we ourselves made team among themselves , and we learned and played quiz there for points.. perhaps that was the first time we all realized our common interest ! and that was my baby step towards participating in many more ones..! and today what i cherish is the friendship i made with them.. its still intact and nothing has changed and i realize , it is for a life time!! and the debates!!!! who will forget the debates?? today when i look back , may b the arguments we made those day might be stupid ones , but still we used to come prepared for the arguments and counter ones!! our world were different! perhaps those debates made us to focus on the topic of public interests which made us having discussions on it!
and our Malayalam classes!! we used to wait for it to come.. as we used to change to music directors , when our teacher used asked to tune the poem v learn!! language classes were the best! as it was in those language classes , we had the best debates ever! and malayalam period was our favorite! why because, you can speak your mother tongue and that was a celebration! we intentionally used to make our teacher stay in our class even after the hour was over!!
and those 2-3 days long youth festivals with 4-5 different stages!! those days were best..! u may not b participating , but our group used to wander here n there , had fun , made comments , watch few of them..! till 8th we were sad that we were not taken to lions club, as the reason was we weren't grown up then! and it was a privilege when we were allowed to go and watch the dance items in lions club. - meaning u are grown up now!!😂
till this day , i laugh hard at that open assembly "exercise dance" .. i mean what utter stupidity was tht!!🤐😂😂
and also i remember those 20 round walk at the school ground during the PT hour.. many hated , but still many of us made it..! we were achievers then! again those high jumps , long jumps.. even if many couldn't make it , our teachers insisted it.. there were no excuses.. and actually v all tried it.. that was actually a training for pushing your limits everyday, today i realize..! i hated every Tuesdays .. but v all used to keep on trying and with 3 or 4 Tuesdays many used to succeed in that!!
Also , the assemblies.. it was a privilege to get a chance to say the pledge and thought for the day in the assemblies.. they were the little little happiness u had!
on a personal front , the best evolution i had was when i were no longer a class leader , i realized then , what i had been missing all these while standing in front of the class and was "ruling" them .Ruling and being ruled is a totally different story.. but that was okay.. because , i made the most cherishing memories and life long friendship while i was amidst them..! i mean i was discovering a totally different me..! i was rough and tough then-- u know u should b responsible , as u are a leader" kinda attitude i had then! but once it was over , i discovered i had a much cooler side inside me..! many of my fellow "little flowers" used to tell me that , i didn't know u were this cool!! and i used to laugh hearing that!! and once that head girl responsibility was over , i made the best ever exchanges with my class mates..! i had new friends , i was open to new ideologies and i was open to the fact that -- u need not always be stubborn.. make new friendships , smile , laugh , create memories as in future your only asset is going to be this memories.. and that was worth it.. with every new bench rotations , with every place change , u discovered a lot of different personalities amidst those 74 flowers and i remember many of them till today.. and all had something sweet about them , which i never realized until i was head girl!!
actually u need to b amidst the masses to learn the pulse of them.. by standing on the podium and looking over , wont make you learn a thing and such leader will be a failure and i was an utter failure as the head girl.. i realized it then only..! because my friends circle showed an immense growth only after i became one among them.. till then nobody used to talk to me much ,apart from those 3-4 besties i had then!
Another beautiful memory i have is , wen 4 or 5 of us were given a chance to go outside alone to the nearby school for an inquiry about an exam , getting a chance like that was a lottery as none of the teachers were with us.. they trusted us with all their heart and gave us permission to go to the nearby school , on foot..! we were overwhelmed with that and i still remember , the moment we stepped out the compound wall , we were actually thanking our dear teachers for trusting us! and we had a fun walk then..! a cherishing memory that is!
Again , our onam, Christmas celebrations!we celebrated the festivals of sharing and i mean it.. we were all from extremely normal families and ordering food was beyond our circumstances and what we actually do was that , each person was assigned to bring one or two curry and rice of their own.. and with all the varieties of curries we always had real sadya..and we always loved it as such..! such a lovely sharing and our celebrations were our another kinda little happiness we had..! also i remember while in 9th standard , we actually visited the municipal park at noon , as we asked in written request to the municipality to open it for us whereas in usual it opens only at 4.. and they agreed and v had our these sadya sitting on the meadow with the curries shared.. and the idea was of our teachers'.. that is an incredible memory!
yet again i had a moment of self discovery and also got the chance to witness some gems amidst the "little flowers".. some incredibly talented people, the most colorful memory i am having.. when our Malayalam teacher asked us to stage the drama "pathummayude aadu"!! we had no idea , how do script it down.. but that was a beautiful team work.. with ideas overflowing from all in our group to create the set up and to act even.. for every single person that was a new experience and most of us had not acted in any single thing then.. but , our teachers believed in us more than ourselves and the challenges they gave for us everyday was as such , tht u discover that unseen side of you..! and v staged it the best way we cud do.. which actually made us all proud abt ourselves..!
but tht gave as some "over confidence" too which made us create a disaster recreating "Ganga-Nagavalli" scene from manichitrathazhu!! 🤣🤣 but that was a lesson for life time too.. the lesson "u can have confidence over ur skill, but not "over confidence" , at any cost!!
i have even more vivid memories , but what i actually wanted to convey was that , school days were heaven.. Today i actually wanted to thank all the persons of my class as they were all wonderful human beings.. i haven't realized it back then , we all had some personal space there , but when i look back , yes.. every single person had some quality , i wud say the 74 flowers had 74 difference fragrances then , who had contributed alot to create these incredible memories of my school..! Heaven , it actually was , all because of the angels v had..! yes , had fights , v had ideological differences , but if all those can add upto your personal evolution , then there are no complaints..! that 12 long years had a major contribution for our personal growth..i am deliberately avoiding the names. because , i am afraid , if i miss any 1..! So thank you dear "Little Flowers " for being what you are , and i know many of us had major changes post our school days , but that doesnt make our memories fade ..isnt it!! ? and i wish all my "little flowers " all the good in their life and to keep on contributing to the personal evolution of every1 surrounding you..! You guys were too good..and may mighty bless us all evn more..
we had such an immense strength in our class.. so 5 students were actually "packed" in that small bench..! in our lower classes , our major complaint was the issue of space.. and the secret complaints of the fellow class mates on the other person will be on , "how much space she is taking? why cant she keep her bags down on the floor".😂😂. how silly we were..!!! and then as v grew up , the issues of space vanished and v all stay together with what little we had!!
Again the most beautiful memories i had which i cherish even today was our preparations for quizzes , competitive exams.. at least a 10 of us were given a special permission to study sitting outside the class during our free hours..! that was the most awesome moment i ever had in my school life. we ourselves made team among themselves , and we learned and played quiz there for points.. perhaps that was the first time we all realized our common interest ! and that was my baby step towards participating in many more ones..! and today what i cherish is the friendship i made with them.. its still intact and nothing has changed and i realize , it is for a life time!! and the debates!!!! who will forget the debates?? today when i look back , may b the arguments we made those day might be stupid ones , but still we used to come prepared for the arguments and counter ones!! our world were different! perhaps those debates made us to focus on the topic of public interests which made us having discussions on it!
and our Malayalam classes!! we used to wait for it to come.. as we used to change to music directors , when our teacher used asked to tune the poem v learn!! language classes were the best! as it was in those language classes , we had the best debates ever! and malayalam period was our favorite! why because, you can speak your mother tongue and that was a celebration! we intentionally used to make our teacher stay in our class even after the hour was over!!
and those 2-3 days long youth festivals with 4-5 different stages!! those days were best..! u may not b participating , but our group used to wander here n there , had fun , made comments , watch few of them..! till 8th we were sad that we were not taken to lions club, as the reason was we weren't grown up then! and it was a privilege when we were allowed to go and watch the dance items in lions club. - meaning u are grown up now!!😂
till this day , i laugh hard at that open assembly "exercise dance" .. i mean what utter stupidity was tht!!🤐😂😂
and also i remember those 20 round walk at the school ground during the PT hour.. many hated , but still many of us made it..! we were achievers then! again those high jumps , long jumps.. even if many couldn't make it , our teachers insisted it.. there were no excuses.. and actually v all tried it.. that was actually a training for pushing your limits everyday, today i realize..! i hated every Tuesdays .. but v all used to keep on trying and with 3 or 4 Tuesdays many used to succeed in that!!
Also , the assemblies.. it was a privilege to get a chance to say the pledge and thought for the day in the assemblies.. they were the little little happiness u had!
on a personal front , the best evolution i had was when i were no longer a class leader , i realized then , what i had been missing all these while standing in front of the class and was "ruling" them .Ruling and being ruled is a totally different story.. but that was okay.. because , i made the most cherishing memories and life long friendship while i was amidst them..! i mean i was discovering a totally different me..! i was rough and tough then-- u know u should b responsible , as u are a leader" kinda attitude i had then! but once it was over , i discovered i had a much cooler side inside me..! many of my fellow "little flowers" used to tell me that , i didn't know u were this cool!! and i used to laugh hearing that!! and once that head girl responsibility was over , i made the best ever exchanges with my class mates..! i had new friends , i was open to new ideologies and i was open to the fact that -- u need not always be stubborn.. make new friendships , smile , laugh , create memories as in future your only asset is going to be this memories.. and that was worth it.. with every new bench rotations , with every place change , u discovered a lot of different personalities amidst those 74 flowers and i remember many of them till today.. and all had something sweet about them , which i never realized until i was head girl!!
actually u need to b amidst the masses to learn the pulse of them.. by standing on the podium and looking over , wont make you learn a thing and such leader will be a failure and i was an utter failure as the head girl.. i realized it then only..! because my friends circle showed an immense growth only after i became one among them.. till then nobody used to talk to me much ,apart from those 3-4 besties i had then!
Another beautiful memory i have is , wen 4 or 5 of us were given a chance to go outside alone to the nearby school for an inquiry about an exam , getting a chance like that was a lottery as none of the teachers were with us.. they trusted us with all their heart and gave us permission to go to the nearby school , on foot..! we were overwhelmed with that and i still remember , the moment we stepped out the compound wall , we were actually thanking our dear teachers for trusting us! and we had a fun walk then..! a cherishing memory that is!
Again , our onam, Christmas celebrations!we celebrated the festivals of sharing and i mean it.. we were all from extremely normal families and ordering food was beyond our circumstances and what we actually do was that , each person was assigned to bring one or two curry and rice of their own.. and with all the varieties of curries we always had real sadya..and we always loved it as such..! such a lovely sharing and our celebrations were our another kinda little happiness we had..! also i remember while in 9th standard , we actually visited the municipal park at noon , as we asked in written request to the municipality to open it for us whereas in usual it opens only at 4.. and they agreed and v had our these sadya sitting on the meadow with the curries shared.. and the idea was of our teachers'.. that is an incredible memory!
yet again i had a moment of self discovery and also got the chance to witness some gems amidst the "little flowers".. some incredibly talented people, the most colorful memory i am having.. when our Malayalam teacher asked us to stage the drama "pathummayude aadu"!! we had no idea , how do script it down.. but that was a beautiful team work.. with ideas overflowing from all in our group to create the set up and to act even.. for every single person that was a new experience and most of us had not acted in any single thing then.. but , our teachers believed in us more than ourselves and the challenges they gave for us everyday was as such , tht u discover that unseen side of you..! and v staged it the best way we cud do.. which actually made us all proud abt ourselves..!
but tht gave as some "over confidence" too which made us create a disaster recreating "Ganga-Nagavalli" scene from manichitrathazhu!! 🤣🤣 but that was a lesson for life time too.. the lesson "u can have confidence over ur skill, but not "over confidence" , at any cost!!
i have even more vivid memories , but what i actually wanted to convey was that , school days were heaven.. Today i actually wanted to thank all the persons of my class as they were all wonderful human beings.. i haven't realized it back then , we all had some personal space there , but when i look back , yes.. every single person had some quality , i wud say the 74 flowers had 74 difference fragrances then , who had contributed alot to create these incredible memories of my school..! Heaven , it actually was , all because of the angels v had..! yes , had fights , v had ideological differences , but if all those can add upto your personal evolution , then there are no complaints..! that 12 long years had a major contribution for our personal growth..i am deliberately avoiding the names. because , i am afraid , if i miss any 1..! So thank you dear "Little Flowers " for being what you are , and i know many of us had major changes post our school days , but that doesnt make our memories fade ..isnt it!! ? and i wish all my "little flowers " all the good in their life and to keep on contributing to the personal evolution of every1 surrounding you..! You guys were too good..and may mighty bless us all evn more..
Much love from that once "hitler" headgirl turned common classmate.!!. all thanks to the "little flowers"❤️❤️❤️❤️❤️❤️❤️❤️❤️❤️❤️❤️❤️❤️❤️❤️
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