Birthday--?
Its 13th September 2021, Monday. Its my birthday! I am 29. Well, all these years I thought I won't be sharing a single of my insecurity anywhere ever. But now I guess this has to come out before it kills me like anything. May be one day if anybody reads they can understand. I wish!! Well for the past 6-7 years my birthdays are nothing but shockers for my parents. As their daughter is not getting married and is an year older to her death.! well, I would say that I am living inside a pressure cooker that may blow any day. I wont blame my parents as I understand the pressure they are in. But the problem, In reality , I guess is , I have a heart that care too much for them that I am unable to convince them about what I really want in my life or else is it because I didn't realize it myself? Anyway, i don't really know!! The problem is, I admit I am commitment phobic. The idea of marriage is scaring me to death. I have really really thought of running away or killing myself ju